Dear Stranger,

Every morning when you wake up you seldom feel like it's a joy but you try to make the best of it by having a cup of coffee. You treasure life because you feel that you would only experience life once and you are trying so hard to catch and embrace every glimpse of it until the point where sometimes you become very tired of breathing. Then you loose all motivation. You feel like a slug. Dragging your feet through corridors; you feel disconnected with the world. It's as if you were in a dream. But everyone knows, after some heavy exercises, your muscles will ache and after that they will be stronger. Maybe it's the muscle of life that is aching. Maybe it's your period of reflecting and recovery. You know you will be okay again.

You tell others to love themselves because you feel that you do but in actual fact, you don't. You love others and you are constantly trying to please the people around you, being too careful to not let the wrong words out of your mouth. And when you trip and fall in the marathon of life, you blame yourself, you tell yourself that you are lousy and slow and that you really suck because others can and you can't. Like hello?! Self-reflecting is important, but sometimes, the most important thing to do is to stand up and continue running the race! There are many things I wish I could remind you of but everyone is a little schizophrenic at times and even I would forget my priorities in life so I don't blame you for it.

You like helping others... And others like to come to you for help too because you look like you have all it takes to take on life but you know you don't and you are just an average 17 year old struggling to stay above the waters hiding the fact that you are just so you can help others. Maybe you should really learn to get a boat before trying to save someone else from drowning in the middle of the ocean.

Thoughts and daydreams always fills your eyes when you are alone because life never fails to amaze you. I am sure that your thoughts are as deep as the Atlantic and you know you will never be able to share all of them with the world because you have a short-term memory. That's why your blog is called thoughts. You forget what you think and that's why you have to record them down. But not everything goes there and nothing frustrates you more than coming back home and forgetting what you want to post. Like your experience of losing your wallet.

You think about everything under the sun but the only thing you haven't thought about is you. That's why you feel like a deer in the headlights when your psychology lecturer asks you about yourself. You've never thought deeply about you that's why I am helping you think right now. You know you are talented in many ways and at the same time you know that you aren't the best in the world that's why you feel the need to be humble. You try to shine less... And you usually regret it.

I know that there are many things in life that you are trying to figure out and now you are finally trying to figure out about yourself. I am glad that you are making progress and I hope to know you better from now on.

Regards,

Stranger :)