Why I blog(ged).

I survived my first sem of poly life. Turns out that poly life is awesome!! I haven't updated my blog for a super long time cuz I don't think anyone is reading my blog and I was wrong!! A few people are! But that's not the point. My initial reason for blogging wasn't to be a famous blogger; I wanted to sort my thoughts out through blogging.

The magical thing about putting thoughts into words is that you get to read what is on your mind and edit it. It is like taking out all your messy worksheets and handouts from your bag at the end of a week and filing it into their assigned files. Although you still have the same amount of worksheet, it is now neatly organised and put in a place where it's easily accessible. I don't know how you manage your worksheets but usually I will hate myself for not filing my worksheets up at the end of a week cuz it would mean that I will have a lot of messy papers in my bag.

I used to take blogging as an excuse to practice my English. During my secondary school days, English paper 1 would have topics like "Peace" or "Parents" or "Power" (I have no idea why they are all 'P' words) and usually my ideas for those essays came from blogging. So my essays are actually like 'canned food' essays; instant, and convenient!

Anyways, I am posting this to sort out my thoughts on blogging. I am very high on motivation this holiday and I plan to do many things. One of which is to revive my blog. So here I am with a bright bright blogskin cuz I am not in the mood to find a better one just yet!

I will be back soon!

You who wouldn't know

I guess I have to be really honest with myself and say that I never really got things sorted out in love. I had desperate crushes (crushing on someone better than the others just to fill the hole in my heart) so many times and most of the time it really hurts. I wish I could just stay out of this love love shit but somehow my mind just doesn't allow that.

These few months, I had this person on my mind but now she is slowly fading away. I hope I can remain crushless after this because I am really sick of love. I really just want to be inhuman for awhile and say things like, "There is no love that lasts forever." and "Love is stupid".

And from tumblr:

"To be in love is like jumping off a cliff with no intent on looking down at the bottom. You don't care how its going to hurt like hell later, all you care about is that short period of time... when you felt like you could fly."

See how dumb love is?

But I am still gonna fall into it's trap someday..

Gaaaahhhhhh...

Thin = Beautiful?

Due to social and media influences on self-image. Many people out there are starting to be insecure with themselves. The media portrays skinniness as beauty, thus causing this massive social conformity about being thin. Almost everyone wants to be thin because they want to look better. They want to look something like the beautiful people in the media that might not even be real. To me, being a bamboo pole isn't the only thing to beauty, there is much more to it. But if people really want to be skinny, at least choose a healthier way and safe way to be skinny.

I don't want to say much here. If you really want to know more, you can just ask me. I have stuff to recommend. FOR FREEEEEE. :)

LOL.

Get it?

I Made A Cover!! :D

This is just a draft version. The full one should be out soon after I do the entire song and improve it a little more. I am not fully happy with this cover yet, I think there are certain things to change but I posted it up anyway cuz I couldn't stand how long it is taking to perfect this thing while keeping it to myself. :P

But anyways, lets hope the full version will consist of a proper video. XD

AIM TO WIN!!

Okay. I am sorry that the title of this post is a little bit too enthu, but the reason why it is all in caps is because if you say "Aim to win." in a very dull tone, it just doesn't sound aggressive enough to win. ><

Not very recently, I read a book which has a little content about a samurai's way of life. Basically, back in the day, a samurai is a Japanese swordsman. They constantly kill and are constantly wanted killed, so their lives are in danger most of the time. This makes them thankful for every sunrise. They treasure every second of their life so that they die with no regrets. This mentallity has helped the samurai to do everything to the best of his ability and not take life for granted.

I think many of us take life for granted. Chances are given to us but we do not treasure. If we all had the samurai's mentality in the things we do, then maybe we will have lesser regrets. Live every second to it's fullest!!!

Give your best shot.
Don't aim to pass.. Aim to win!

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Next Chapter.

Poly life has begun.

I have never expected time to pass so fast. I have just gotten used to secondary school and the next thing I know, I need to start adapting to poly life. It wasn't as scary as I thought. Maybe the scary part isn't here yet because they still don't know me enough. But I can't hide it for very long and sooner or later they will learn about my unstraight-ness and I will see who are my true friends.

No matter how, I don't expect it to be as bad as secondary school because after glee, queer as folk, burlesque and all that gay content shit, the existence of homosexuals shouldn't seem so surprising anymore.

Nonetheless, I keep my fingers crossed.